Staying Positive

Inevitably at some point in your life you are going to feel like you are drowning. Sinking into darkness, not knowing which was is up so you can know which way to kick to get to the surface and refill your lungs with the air you took for granted for so long.

Lately it feels as if I have been drowning. I can see the surface, but no matter how hard I kick I can't seem to get above to breathe.

I have been unable to find a job where I am paid what I am worth and I can use my education. My romantic life is floundering because I get stuck on the wrong person who, no matter how hard I try, wont notice me. My finances are shot, I do my best to pay my bills with the little income I have, but it doesn't seem like enough. The only thing I have to look forward to is laying down at night and sleeping, in hopes that all my thoughts and fears will disappear while I am in dreamland.

While it can be overwhelming at times, I have been trying to stay positive, remember that things like this usually are temporary and I will get through it. Remember the things in my life that I have to look forward to. Like my nephews wonderful laugh, snuffy kisses in the morning from my dog, memories I have yet to make with my friends, things that I have yet to see and do... and it helps me continue kicking, holding my breath just a little while longer because I know I will make it to the surface.

Things will get better. Just keep swimming. Eventually I will break the surface.

~K